If that song had been out by the time our magandang pagtitinginan was about to end, I would not have shed buckets of tears! If only I had listened to my other “conscience”, I would not have gone deeper. If only I ignored, I would not have been so affected.
Because the love story ended. Love stories that seldom happen to me. It was just so bad because we were left
without a choice. I pitied him, I pitied
me, I pitied us! It was so hard
accepting the truth of us parting.
Sad to say, my reason to smile had become my
reason to cry. I hated myself for
allowing him to let me fall for him! I
was so so so bitter! I was
sour-gripping! I was stupid! I didn’t have any outlet to shout out loud my
madness at that instant. My only friends
were Snickers, siomai, and tequila (see My Notes at www.facebook.com/maryrosalieo).
Acceptance, letting go, and moving on – 3
difficult phases that I had to undergo all by myself. It pained me a lot because it was so
unfair! That for the first time in my
life, I had loved somebody who loved me but it just couldn’t be.
Then again, I came to ask. What if he turned out to be a totally
different person while I also turned out to be another totally different person
in a different lifetime, would our fate have changed? But we cannot choose the person we fall in
love with ‘coz it just happens!
However, I didn’t have any regrets because
falling for him was still something beautiful.
Something Beautiful
Something beautiful
happened to me! I fell in love! Though it left me, it’s still beautiful. Yes, I’ve cried. And though I’ve cried, it’s still
beautiful. It made me feel human! It made me feel alive! It was unexpected and made me realize not to
be afraid to fall.
So now, I’m excited
for the “next please…”. Maybe this time,
it will stay not for a while but for a long time… But I’m not wishing for forever since I’m not
yet ready for the real thing. Love love
love! Come love! Come magic!
Come beauty! Come and make your
surprises!
-
Mary
Rosalie T. Olandesca
April 11, 2010
His mission in my life had been
accomplished! Next in line please…
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