A Love Story on a Love Month

"Although God had told me to be single, there is still this hope within me for Him to change His mind.  Could God change His mind?  Has there any written instance that He did?  If you ever know one, can you please pm me?" 

- Excerpt from On Waiting..... (Dec. 29, 2013)  

Fast forward 2016 and I got the answer to my questions last Saturday, February 20.  On a love month, God gives me the love story of a promise to hold on to.  Oh, how sweet my God is!  He's stirring up something inside of me, the matter of my heart that I had shoved away for already a year.  So I now have a hugot post this last day of February for I already thought I couldn't have one.  This could have broken my tradition of posting melodramatic stories of my "love" travails as I always do every love month.  But good thing God has me in His remembrance by giving me the answer to my questions!

Could God change His mind?

Yes, God could change His mind!  Scripture has it that God is an unchangeable God ("For I am the Lord, I do not change." - Malachi 3:6) but He can and will change His mind!  

Has there any written instance that He did?

Plenty!  First is Abraham's plea for Sodom and Gomorrah.  He reasoned in prayer for God not to destroy all of the two evil cities and to spare the righteous ones.  (Genesis 18:16-33)  That's why Lot and his family were saved from the catastrophe because God remembered Abraham's beseeching for the righteous people. (Genesis 19:29)

Second is Moses' plea for the people God brought up out of Egypt.  God was so angry with his people because they had created a golden calf for them to worship.  In God's wrath, He said to Moses that He will wipe all his people away but Moses appealed and God relented with His plan.  (Exodus 32:1-14)

Third is Jonah's mission to Nineveh.  God commanded Jonah to warn the Ninevites of the punishment He will bring to the city.  Fortunately, the people of Nineveh turned away from their sins, repented, fasted, and prayed so God changed His mind and didn't destroy the city.  (Jonah 3:1-10)         

If you ever know one, can you please pm me?

And I got all these answers through FaithGateway's Devotionals Daily I made a subscription with a year ago.  The article is entitled "Why Keep Praying? God Changes His Mind" by Robert Morris which is an excerpt from his book, Why Keep Praying When You Don't See Results.  It was on a Saturday morning right after opening the store on my mobile phone when God talked to me about praying without ceasing.

Yes, I did pray for my situation yesterday, today, and forever as I may say.  I prayed, stopped praying, prayed again, stopped praying again, cycle!  But when I prayed before, I had it at the back of my mind that God won't answer my prayer.  I always thought that He's gonna make me into an old maid.  I ranted, I complained, and I blamed Him for all the misfortunes I had when it comes to my love life.  I rebelled, got bitter, and got hopeless!  Though He told me to wait, still I dejected.  Though I understood a bit, still I didn't accept what He wanted me to do.  

Then God revealed something for me to have a change of heart.  Step by step, from denial to anger to bargaining to depression, then back to denial, anger, bargaining, and depression, cycle again!  Sometimes I'll be okay with it but oftentimes I'm never okay!  I dreaded to reach the acceptance part.  Until everything in between, I said to myself not to yearn for things I cannot have and that's the time when I slowly accepted.  Accepted the will of God for my life.

So I also understood how to rejoice in the Lord (Philippians 4:4) and how to delight in Him (Psalm 37:4)!  I've memorized these verses for so long and even shared 'em to console friends but this is the only time that I'm living it.  I've learned the hardest way and I've come a very long way.  I am now embracing and maximizing my season!

Now I don't have to be the first to show interest to a guy.  I don't have to stand in front of a boy, asking him to love me.  And I don't have to "buy" a man just to make him mine.  All those unreplied text messages, seen chat messages, rejections, and unrequited love have come to nothing.  'Coz all I have to do is to wait for the Lord and to put my trust in Him (Isaiah 8:17)!  It may be written in my palm but God changes His mind!  As long as I keep praying and this time as I pray, I truly believe that God will give me the answer to my prayer in His perfect time (Ecclesiastes 3:11)!

And this is God's love story for me this love month.  A promise of giving me my heart's desire if I pray continually (1 Thessalonians 5:17).  So I press on praying because all the people around me have been praying for me so I join them in praying seriously for "the one" to finally come my way!  And this time as I pray, there is a change of heart.  I am now claiming the answer to my prayer without second thoughts.  Oh, God.  I just can't fathom Your thoughts and Your ways and I thank You for the divine intervention and for giving me the peace of heart!  And I am now very excited for the continuation of this love story, our love story for it's only You who can make me whole!

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On Waiting..... 

Live While Waiting

A Desperate Call

Feb-Ibig:  Embracing the Single Journey

To the Single-Hearted this Valentine's Day

Closing Doors.....

Nostalgia

*In memory of Percival "My Kuya Bebong" Onod, one of my disciplers next to Ate Mydel "My-My" Bangcong and Kuya Rio "Taz" De Barras during my baby steps as a Christian when I was in third year high school.

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Feb-Ibig: Embracing the Single Journey

"As if I have a story to tell.  Do I have the right to talk about love?  I’ll just be laughed at.  Because until now, I’m NBSB (see Home – My 12 Days of Christmas)!  I’m the only one left for the love trip.  All my friends had gone out and found their one true love already.  Who could be mine?"

- Excerpt from Officially Love Month! (Feb. 1, 2012)

And after two years, my story is still the same.....  Never been courted since birth, no boyfriend since birth, never been kissed, never been touched!  Honestly, I admire my students who fall in love so easily and so fast.  They have nothing to think about but their love life!  They are so young, so carefree, so careless!  They are never afraid to get hurt and never scare away to loose.  But I thought to myself, I cannot do that.  I cannot loose myself for someone else because I am such a selfie!  I am too selfish to share my life with somebody else!  Or is this only a front for me to still have my pride and console myself for being into this desperate state?

Well, if you have been following me, you've heard of my rants.  If you have been reading me, you've already put pity on me.  Although I have been using a mantra for years, boys aren't still lining up for me!

Then I cursed myself to oldmaidoom.  I considered myself such a hopeless case not until, God revealed something to me.  He gave me the answer to my long-time prayers and that is WAIT.  With that, I'm assured that there is still hope for me.  I got the peace of mind of Him taking in control.  So all I had to do is to let go and let God.  After that, I understood and decided to just LIVE HAPPILY WHILE WAITING.

Moreover, I realized that if "the one" hadn't come yet, might as well accept God's answer and better yet, enjoy the perks of being single!  Because being single means.....

being pretty all the time,

doing things whatever you please,

wearing clothes without restrictions,

going to places wherever adventure calls,

and squandering money over luxe items!

So I came to think to myself that if I'm married now, I'd probably miss all the enjoyment that single life has to offer.  Would I say no to that?  I ain't got any responsibilities that tie me up like having a husband and kids.  'Coz I swear, I never wanted to become a desperate housewife!  Then I realized, this has been the life that I've been wanting to have.  Unconsciously, I had actually dreamed of having this kind of life!  No hassles, no worries, no drama, no liabilities!  I am living as I please!  

So to quote my 2006 composition,

"Lastly, ladies are always threatened by the word "old maid". Nobody ever wants to be one! As a result of the society's prejudice, it became a mind set that being an old maid is a very unfortunate fate. It is as if it's a curse, an incurable disease, and a disgrace."

- Excerpt from Old Maid (July 10, 2006)

I still don't wanna be an old maid!  Yeah, I know that I'm an old-maid-in-the-making but what can I do if I am?  I don't need to feel the pressure of doing what everyone else does (and that is getting hitched) because I know to myself what is right for me.  Additionally, I don't need to play with love just to "experience".  

And as for the meantime I would say, "I may not have a love life, but I do have a lovely life!"

And with this I can sincerely say, "Thank you, Lord for the single life that I am truly enjoying the overstaying way!"

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