A Love Story on a Love Month

"Although God had told me to be single, there is still this hope within me for Him to change His mind.  Could God change His mind?  Has there any written instance that He did?  If you ever know one, can you please pm me?" 

- Excerpt from On Waiting..... (Dec. 29, 2013)  

Fast forward 2016 and I got the answer to my questions last Saturday, February 20.  On a love month, God gives me the love story of a promise to hold on to.  Oh, how sweet my God is!  He's stirring up something inside of me, the matter of my heart that I had shoved away for already a year.  So I now have a hugot post this last day of February for I already thought I couldn't have one.  This could have broken my tradition of posting melodramatic stories of my "love" travails as I always do every love month.  But good thing God has me in His remembrance by giving me the answer to my questions!

Could God change His mind?

Yes, God could change His mind!  Scripture has it that God is an unchangeable God ("For I am the Lord, I do not change." - Malachi 3:6) but He can and will change His mind!  

Has there any written instance that He did?

Plenty!  First is Abraham's plea for Sodom and Gomorrah.  He reasoned in prayer for God not to destroy all of the two evil cities and to spare the righteous ones.  (Genesis 18:16-33)  That's why Lot and his family were saved from the catastrophe because God remembered Abraham's beseeching for the righteous people. (Genesis 19:29)

Second is Moses' plea for the people God brought up out of Egypt.  God was so angry with his people because they had created a golden calf for them to worship.  In God's wrath, He said to Moses that He will wipe all his people away but Moses appealed and God relented with His plan.  (Exodus 32:1-14)

Third is Jonah's mission to Nineveh.  God commanded Jonah to warn the Ninevites of the punishment He will bring to the city.  Fortunately, the people of Nineveh turned away from their sins, repented, fasted, and prayed so God changed His mind and didn't destroy the city.  (Jonah 3:1-10)         

If you ever know one, can you please pm me?

And I got all these answers through FaithGateway's Devotionals Daily I made a subscription with a year ago.  The article is entitled "Why Keep Praying? God Changes His Mind" by Robert Morris which is an excerpt from his book, Why Keep Praying When You Don't See Results.  It was on a Saturday morning right after opening the store on my mobile phone when God talked to me about praying without ceasing.

Yes, I did pray for my situation yesterday, today, and forever as I may say.  I prayed, stopped praying, prayed again, stopped praying again, cycle!  But when I prayed before, I had it at the back of my mind that God won't answer my prayer.  I always thought that He's gonna make me into an old maid.  I ranted, I complained, and I blamed Him for all the misfortunes I had when it comes to my love life.  I rebelled, got bitter, and got hopeless!  Though He told me to wait, still I dejected.  Though I understood a bit, still I didn't accept what He wanted me to do.  

Then God revealed something for me to have a change of heart.  Step by step, from denial to anger to bargaining to depression, then back to denial, anger, bargaining, and depression, cycle again!  Sometimes I'll be okay with it but oftentimes I'm never okay!  I dreaded to reach the acceptance part.  Until everything in between, I said to myself not to yearn for things I cannot have and that's the time when I slowly accepted.  Accepted the will of God for my life.

So I also understood how to rejoice in the Lord (Philippians 4:4) and how to delight in Him (Psalm 37:4)!  I've memorized these verses for so long and even shared 'em to console friends but this is the only time that I'm living it.  I've learned the hardest way and I've come a very long way.  I am now embracing and maximizing my season!

Now I don't have to be the first to show interest to a guy.  I don't have to stand in front of a boy, asking him to love me.  And I don't have to "buy" a man just to make him mine.  All those unreplied text messages, seen chat messages, rejections, and unrequited love have come to nothing.  'Coz all I have to do is to wait for the Lord and to put my trust in Him (Isaiah 8:17)!  It may be written in my palm but God changes His mind!  As long as I keep praying and this time as I pray, I truly believe that God will give me the answer to my prayer in His perfect time (Ecclesiastes 3:11)!

And this is God's love story for me this love month.  A promise of giving me my heart's desire if I pray continually (1 Thessalonians 5:17).  So I press on praying because all the people around me have been praying for me so I join them in praying seriously for "the one" to finally come my way!  And this time as I pray, there is a change of heart.  I am now claiming the answer to my prayer without second thoughts.  Oh, God.  I just can't fathom Your thoughts and Your ways and I thank You for the divine intervention and for giving me the peace of heart!  And I am now very excited for the continuation of this love story, our love story for it's only You who can make me whole!

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*In memory of Percival "My Kuya Bebong" Onod, one of my disciplers next to Ate Mydel "My-My" Bangcong and Kuya Rio "Taz" De Barras during my baby steps as a Christian when I was in third year high school.

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My First Wattpad Story

I've been wanting to write a book since I started reading Sweet Valley of Francine Pascal.  In fact, I had attempted to write a story in Filipino language when I was in high school but I left it undone.  The draft is still in my notebook hidden inside my closet, untouched for many years now.  

In 2008, I stopped my world literally and figuratively.  I got tired of roaming around and chasing life so I laid low.  I went home, watched all the movies and TV series I missed watching while in college, cooked and baked as much as I could, and read all the books I've been wanting to read!  Then I stumbled upon writing a story I didn't intend to write.

After 7 years, I still want to write a book.  A self-help book dedicated to all single ladies like me who are coping up with this "single-blessedness" thingy.  I had taken down notes on how to write it but my ideas are still unripe.  I think I need a support system for this one as of the moment like having a circle of single-lady friends.  I need to confirm with them if they also feel what I feel, think what I think, or experience what I experience.  So, single ladies out there, who's up for a single ladies club?

Anyway, before writing that dream book, I ought to finish what I had started.  I was really amazed that when I found my file on this, I was already on chapter 6!  I couldn't believe I had written that long and until now, I still can't believe that it was well-written!  Haha!  Am I not just too proud of myself?!  But it really really amazed me!  I appreciated my work, laughed at it, and got hooked on it that even in just 6 chapters, I was so thrilled of what might be happening on it.  If I got amazed reading this work after 7 years, I ought to share this to the public so all of you will get amazed too!  Haha!  I'm sorry if I'm too proud of myself again but I just can't help it!

So ladies and gentlemen, here's my first wattpad story!  Hope you'll enjoy reading this as I take you to the past and the present of crushes, first love, and the like.  Hope you'll get kilig over this as what AlDub and Ms. Pastillas segments do! :)  Click on the link below!          
   

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Dear John

Is it for real that true love comes only once in our lives?  That marrying your one true love occurs very rarely and only those chosen few are lucky enough to have had to.  I've heard plenty of stories of people who are so in love with someone but ended up marrying somebody else who they don't love as much as they do with the former one.  Like this Nicholas Sparks' classic, Dear John.

Dear John tells of a story of a once rebel child who turned into a responsible man in uniform.  Then the man met a woman who changed his life forever.  It was also summer when they met.  Eventually, they fell in love and shared the most wonderful experience they ever had in their lifetime.  Things were actually perfect until they had to part ways for the man's military service and the woman's studies.  Miles apart they were separated with the agony of waiting to see each other again.

Miles apart, they had the determination to make things work.

But fate was not so friendly to them that with all the circumstances they were in, they had to wait to express their love for later. 

Promises were made, moments were shared, words were uttered, and lives were agitated.  There is always no guarantee that what you feel for a person now is what you will also feel for him/her tomorrow.  This just shows that in love, everything is uncertain.  We can never be sure of that kind of love to last forever.  No matter how you love so much, there will always be doubts.

If one surrenders, the story definitely ends.  Would it only be a memory?  An experience you'll never ever forget?  An affair to look back to from time to time?  A story to re-read over and over again?  Or a past to revisit whenever you feel lost and alone?

I know you can still read me.  I know we still have that telepathy.  If we continue this unseen relationship and unsaid understanding, we could never move on with our lives.  So this should come from me.  It's about time. Though still very painful, it's about time.  Though I still don't want to, it's about time.  Go, find someone else.  Allow yourself to be happy.  Enjoy your life as much as you can.  As much as you want. Just break free!

But never think that I don't love you anymore.  I can never not love you.  I can never not think of you.  But holding on to this "illusion" hinders us to grow up and explore more of what life has in store for us.  It's about time to cross over and this starts with letting you go.  So as summer ends today, I am letting you go.  Time has never been good to us.  And as I do this, please bear in mind that you are always and will always be the only boy who loved me, the only boy who showed me how he loved me, the only boy who cared, and the only boy who dared.  Though I can't find another, at least I had you for once in my life. :( 

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